memories

I just wanna share some story about my past...
Sometimes, I think about death. I was saved from death. I was 5th years old. That was the lowest time in my life.
This story began in the morning, time for me to prepare to go to kindergarten. I did everything like usually I did. I took a bath with hot water. The maid cooked the hot water for me because that time, there's no automatic hot water in the house. I was in the bathroom doing nothing. The hotwater was cooked in front of the bathroom. After it was boiled, the maid got into the bathroom, without noticing that I was in the bathroom. In the same time, I went out from bathroom. Unconciously I knock the hot water. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA" I shouted for a while, and then close my mouth. The hotwater hit my body. almost 100degree celcius. It's very hot. but as a little girl, i didn't remember what I did feel. a bit traumatic tragedy in my life.
my uncle took my body to the bath, which has fulled of normal water. I was put in there for almost more than an hour. Mother was really very worried. that time, she wanted to go working. She go to the place, where my voice came as soon as she heared "AAAA".
I was taken to the hospital two hours after that. I remember nothing after that. I dont remember what I did after the hotwater tragedy.
What I did remember is I got dengue fever after hotwater tragedy. While I was drinking milk, my nose bleeding. I told my grandma. I was hospitalized. Everyblood got out of my body. My dengue fever was in 4th stadium. I almost died. almost.
I dont know what happen until I felt better 2 weeks after that.
I have my change to have life.

It was eleven years ago. I wonder what would happen if i die? I wont be here. I wont meet you all.
It's a very kind of you to let me live until now.
I dont want to lose my only change.
I didnt die because there're some more things for me to do.

I would be very happy if you support me to finish those things.

if it is lost lifes are never be able to be revive, i might think so.

Oyasumi nasai!


I got something today:
"The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible"





-DR-